Tuesday, October 14, 2008

So Much More

I haven't been entirely honest with you guys in that I've neglected to discuss that I recently started working again. Just doing part-time sales from home for the man I (oddly) call my "old boss", even though he is -- technically -- my current boss.

I've only been doing this for a few weeks and it works out really well so far -- I can make calls and send emails while Phoebe sleeps during the day, and I get (amazing) health insurance and some extra cash for Etsy and wine and what-not. And my boss is amazing. The entire time I was pregnant he would tell me "You know we could just set up a crib right here" (indicating the area behind my desk).

While I wish I had more time to just blog or bake, so far it doesn't seem to be interrupting my life too much. And things are going well.

What's happened, though, is I notice every minute of the day so much more clearly. Do I make a phone call? Or go play with Phoebe for a few minutes? Do I read her a Shel Silverstein poem (yes, she loves them - better than any other book/story I've read her so far) or do I send that quick email.

What is the priority? What can wait?

And it usually makes me stop for a minute, walk away from the laptop, and go play with my baby.

Everyone I talk to on the phone while trying to make sales is afraid of the economy. They don't want to invest in software because they don't want to spend money. They are worried about keeping their jobs. They go home, watch the news and wait for an answer. Just like all of us.

Geoff comes home around 5:30 every day and he changes the channel (usually from Food Network) to watch the news. And it's always so negative. "Look what's going wrong today".

But when Geoff comes home, all I can think is "Yay! Our family is together -- look at how great things are for us, here, right now!" And I pour us a glass of cheap wine and we relax and play with our baby and take joy in the simple pleasures of our life.

Do I wish we weren't stuck in this condo indefinitely thanks to the real estate crash? Yes. Am I thankful we have a roof over our heads? Of course.

Do I wish we could go out and eat sushi and buy name-brand laundry detergent and do I wish I wouldn't see the stress on Geoff's face when he comes home from work?

Of course.

But I don't think that way all the time. Geoff isn't always stressed out. Sometimes we can buy fake sushi at Costco and, really, name brand detergent doesn't really work better, does it? No, seriously, does it? Because I hope not.

What happens most of the time is I try to really be aware of what we have: our family, our baby, our dog. There is so much joy in the simplicity of our life. And I like that a lot.

It's important -- especially now with so much uncertainty -- to pay close attention to the things you value. And I mean the things which you, personally, are accountable for. Like, for example, ending sentences in prepositions.

What I think is amazing is that when you don't have the money to spend to go out and distract yourself from the "guts" of your life, you start to really pay attention to how that life is going. You focus on the relationships more. You start to see how short life is, and how little time we all have, and how you just don't know how long that time will last. At least, that's what has happened to me. And I'm starting to really like being more in touch with the things that matter.

Tonight on CNN, Glenn Beck interviewed a woman who beat cancer 3 times. She started a webpage selling T-shirts with sarcastic jibes at cancer and donates a portion of the money to cancer research.

She said she named her company "So Much More" because there's so much more to her than cancer.

There is so much more to all of us than the bills we're trying to pay, the worry we have about keeping our jobs and the insecurity we feel not knowing what will happen with the upcoming election. Can you feel it? I think everyone does. There's this air of nervousness and waiting for direction. But there's also this air of wanting to be hopeful, of wanting to live life, to be carefree again.

At least, that's how I feel.

I think the solution for our country is to take stock in the things in life that will always hold true: we'll always have our family, our friends, our willingness to persevere. We'll always have our hopes and our ability to evolve and change when circumstances warrant. We'll always have really cheap wine, even when times are hard.

It's time to be optimistic again.


Anonymous said...

amen, sister! that's my motto: KEEP IT SIMPLE! I shop at thrift shops and yard sales, cook delicious home-cooked meals each night, grow alot of my own veggies and cut flowers, dance to van morrison's "moondance" in the kitchen with my sweet lily, go to the library versus buy the book/video, and enjoy talk radio banter on my cheapy sony radio while i walk the dog at night...life is good and easy if you don't junk it up with a bunch of drama and stuff! by the way, your package 'o clothes is coming soon! hope you and phoebe and geoff enjoy your day :)my other motto: EAT YOUR VEGGIES! you can do it!

Annie said...

Good to know I'm not the only optimist out here :)

Anonymous said...

I wasn't sure if i should respond to this or to Kyle's Bday...this sortof fits into both. I found the PERFECT bday card for Kyle, my math major.... it had a quote on it from Einstein:
"not everything that can be counted, counts, and
not everything that counts, can be counted."

thought it would fit with this theme.

love, mom

PhiSigKris said...

Love your philosophy Meghan! I try to maintain a positive attitude, and share it with others, but sometimes you need an extra shot in the arm to keep it going...so, thanks.
Love your blog.