Friday, October 24, 2008

The Things We Don't Take For Granted

Right now I am letting some $3 Sally Hansen nail polish (called "Endless Night") dry on my fingernails.

(WHY DOES NAIL POLISH TAKE SO LORD'S-NAME-IN-VAIN LONG TO DRY, ANYWAY?)

I am drinking a Cabernet/Shiraz that came from a box.

(WAIT - WHY HAVEN'T I ALWAYS BEEN DRINKING THIS -- I CAN BUY IT AT TARGET AND THAT MEANS I GET TO GO TO TARGET FOR IT!)

I am "watching" channel 836 on our DirectTV, which is my FAVORITE music station called "The Loft".

(WAIT -- ARE THEY PLAYING 10,000 MANIACS? OMG AM I 15 AGAIN? I LOVE THIS SONG!)

Lola is on the sofa and so totally not even remotely near her pink blanket.

(I AM NOT VACUUMING THE SOFA I DON'T CARE THAT MY MOM IS COMING NEXT WEEKEND, SHE CAN DEAL WITH IT!)

I am sitting on the floor at the coffee table.

Phoebe fell asleep on the floor in front of the coffee table.

And Geoff is upstairs playing electric guitar for his Aunt who wrote a bunch of songs and wants to know how they'll sound with guitar.

Geoff frequently plays his acoustic, but rarely the electric (which was buried in Phoebe's closet until earlier tonight when Geoff got it out and put new strings on it). And it sounds so nice.

We had tri tip steaks for dinner. Sauteed mushrooms. Sauteed green beans. Leftover macaroni and cheese.

What economy?

I used my new Pantene Restoratives to wash and condition my hair (and -- OMG -- my hair seems luxurious beyond belief for stuff that cost less than $5/bottle). My hair smells good. I just saw a Nivea lip stuff commercial and I'm thinking "I really need to make sure I moisturize my entire body now that I'm 4000 years old and have given birth and I gotta take care of my skin."

Earlier, Phoebe had one of her nightmares and -- I am not making this up -- I went to her, and I put my hand on her leg and I said to her "It's okay, everything is okay, everything in your life is okay." And she smiled. And I mean big smile. Not open-mouthed smile. Just a full-lip smile. It was amazing.

She knows what's good.

There's cobwebs in my living room. The guest bathroom is in complete disarray. I have laundry I should be folding. Dishes I should be washing.

But Geoff is playing electric guitar for his aunt who is singing on the other line. She is in Truckee and he is in our bedroom on my bluetooth.

You know those moments in life where your heart just suddenly and seemingly without warning fills up with joy? I always think of that scene in Amelie (that always makes me cry) with the blind man and Amelie is telling him about everything she sees (and Oh man I want her haircut) and at the end you see this light shooting up to the sky from his heart.

You know, I can relate to those times when you look around at the life surrounding you and everything is good.

I am so incredibly lucky.

On these days I feel like I can't be defeated. No matter what's happened. No matter what will happen tomorrow.

I love my husband. I love my baby. I've got nail polish drying on my nails for the first time in probably 6 months. There is a cheap box of wine in our house (and it's really really good I PROMISE!). And my dog is all satisfied on the couch because she got to lick our tri-tippy plates.

I love this life.

Everything is okay. Everything in our lives is okay.

4 comments:

Erik M. said...

:-)

Mom said...

From MOM:

Ok, i have to ask.... were those the Carmelized Green Beans?
lol

Poodle said...

No it was not the caramelized green beans. SIGH!

Annie said...

*big smile* It really is the little things, isn't it?